|My name is Alexis and before you judge me and write me off as a horrible person, know that I try. I try to be enough, I try to be okay, I try to perfect, but it's impossible if no one is willing to even accept me how I am or look past all the broken shards to the little red flower that acts as my hope. Don't judge, I know who I am and who I should be, so all your words do is hurt.|
Okay, so I haven’t been updating much recently (partially due to the lack of internet and my phone) and the lack of thinspo really threw me off track. Like REALLY* off track. I gained
five SIX pounds. Ugh.
Half of me is disgusted by food and the other half wants it so badly and the past week I’ve given into the fat half of me.
But it’s okay. I was beating myself up over it and almost relasped into cutting but last week is gone and as of yesterday I’m back on track and what better way to do that then with a nice fast?
June 11, 2012
Dinner- Handful of half blue berries half dark chocolate almonds (about 90) and Water
June 12, 2012
Lunch- Coke Vanilla Zero
And for dinner I’m planning on Water (:
I didn’t exercise yesterday becuase I was feeling super dizzy but today i’m doing 30 minutes of stairs, all the jumping jacks, crunches, and squats I can do, and dancing to Lady GaGa because she is my ultimate thinspo and I have to tune up my body for the ballet classes I’m starting in a few weeks.
Ask me anything, I need the motivation <3